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I wish I knew you

I wish I knew you better than
Your finger swirling on a wine glass
While you whistled and lied to
the children in the room
I wish I knew her better than
Her slow decline and pain
And the empty hospital bed

And after.

on 2016-02-05 02:02 am (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] retsuko.livejournal.com
I think I'm very familiar with the feelings you're describing here.

Also, *hugs*
Edited on 2016-02-05 02:02 am (UTC)

on 2016-02-13 09:55 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] cerusee.livejournal.com
Thanks. It's been a fact of life for so long I don't really think about it much, but every now and again I feel this absence where my grandparents were supposed to be--one died when I was still a kid, another died after a long, illness-related decline when I was in college, and a third was lost to Alzheimer's not long after that. I envy people who actually get to form adult relationships with their grandparents. It's so hard to retain a sense of someone's personality when that personality was gone or breaking down by the time you're mature enough to appreciate them.

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